Story of My Life

11/30/2014 11:41:00 PM  mine (:, story  No comments

I have so much to say, I just don't know where to start.

As I remember; when I said this thing was like an online diary, I guess, I did really mean it . . . hmm

Almost, NO! I mean, every single thing I wrote here was totally from what I did in several days. I just can't dismiss those days without wrote it down into a word (antara kerajinan dan kurang kerjaan, walau kadang malas jugak)

But, I have to admit it. I love doing this things. It is like telling a bed story to the young ones. 'act like I'm not part of it' #freakiiiimee-_-
Cause I wanna fall in love with as many things as possible. I wanna explore, and push myself to the limit!

I love to stay up all night.

I love to sleep all day long.

I love to make fun of myself ._.

I love to stay up to make some sketches.

I love to practice guitar and violin at night. And make my parents woke cause I played too loud.

I love to sing in the middle of a night; specially at bath time.

I love to run (today), even thought tomorrow is my final exam. It doesn't mean I don't care. Maybe I wanna lose my self a bit. Girls just wanna have fun (one of Miley's song, which I like)!

I love to do everything I love :D

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Ayah !

11/13/2014 02:05:00 AM  mine (:, story  No comments

father.
dad.
daddy.
papa.
ayah.

Those words are so familiar. Too familiar. But it can't describe any feeling of being a father.

I still didn't know yet, cause I was just his little girl. And I still just wanna be his little girl as long as I can. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to face the real world, but I have to!
...
But these feelings; a totally messed up feelings of exhausted, depressed, betrayed who can completely turning into a big giant love of a father! I can't deny it!

and you might thought it's just another simple story of life, but not for me.

That day. I can't ever forget.


It was in the middle of a night.
The rain was completely ruining my way home. It was already dark, with no people around. And I was way too far from home. I rode my motorbike alone, but unusually I was so afraid to went home.
Oh God, that motorbike; just happened to got it's most worst condition.
And I was like, 'ooh poor lady, what the hell is she doing in the middle of a heavy rain?!' hmm... I didn't know either.
I got so wet, and I did smell like a wet dog. I hate that smell, and I felt so cold. So lonely

My family; some issues just went through us lately. And I don't want to tell it here.
I just say what I need to say. And all I wanna say today is that moment:
I happened to remember, how can my father get through it? when every single things right now feels like a turning table. It doesn't seems as easy as turning your palm. It doesn't easy at all.


But Papa, you know that you've got a friend in me right?
I love You. Happy Fathers Day!

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